Too Lost In The Moment

I am in a path of self destruction. What am I doing to myself???
What was I thinking?? Dear Lord, please, wake me up. Don't let me continue living this nightmare.
Help me, guide me towards the right direction. The path that I am supposed to go.

I am sure this is not the path that was meant for me. Anyone, but me. Not me.
I know you are always here for me, listening to me, guiding me through, so please Lord, I beg you to show me the right path again. Your patience and guidance is everything to me.

I don't know what was I doing. Too lost in the moment perhaps? Or maybe living in the moment?
Whatever it was, I don't want what I was doing ruin everything that I have worked so hard to build. It cannot crumble. I cannot watch and let it crumble down into pieces.

I need to be strong. Please, let me be strong. Hear my plea, I need your strength.
All I feel like doing now is to break down but I know I can't and won't do it. I am better than that. I know I am.

Up until now I had to sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness,
because none of it was ever worth the risk. - Hayley Williams.